Thursday, November 10, 2005
wahahha! sorry la andreww. i actually do have stuff to blog. but just can't seem to find time for myself these days. :( and a few times i came to this page and then i got stuck. like
eh what did i want to blog huh? hahaha. yeahh.
well have been busy with stuff. until i have no time to revise anything yet. which i seriously need before it starts to pile and pile. plus i want to watch
House and
Grey's Anatomy also no time to watch. :(
am i spending too much time? i don't think so leh. hehehe. :Panyway just found out some stuff recently. quite disappointing. you know how i trust people quite easily and that's why i always STRESS on telling me the truth. and not to lie EVER. so please don't lie to me ok? any of you. don't take advantage of me just cos i trust pple easily. and that was what happened. all these while this freaking ass has been lying to me. i'm angry not so much hurt. cos i think that there is a person who is more victimised than me. and i feel bad for her. for wronging her all these while. thinking what a bitch she was and all when in fact the BIG FAT ASS is none other than
YOU yourself. you disappointed me greatly. you really practically lied through your teeth. when i trusted you so much. honestly. i wish that i can say sorry to this girl. for wronging her so badly. but i hope she'll understand that i was in the dark. i didn't know the truth and that's why didn't understand.
well the past is the past. and i've let you go for a long time d. and i'm just glad that things ended shortly. there's a reason for everything that happened. and i believe that God is good to me. He made this short to make me realise that you really aren't worth it. and that i'm glad i made the right choice. if i had chosen to follow you, i will regret big time for letting someone, who has been so good to me, go. just really taught me how important that seriously not to choose anyone over God. and right now i'm so happy. hehehe. you know how good it feels to go to church with someone and to share Him together with someone. that joy i never, and never will experience with you. and i just thank God la. hahaha. for everything now. and i really hope it will last. i always say this but each time i say i really do mean it. just somehow just din work out, not that i din want. i hope i've really grown and just be more matured now. so i wun hurt anyone again. :) hehe.
your cowardness is really such a big turn off. how you handled the whole situation is really just so disappointing. how when you are hurt, you just ran back right into her arms again. and how you just hide and shield away and not brave and face it yourself. an act of a
coward. and that's you. and how you just try to block me out. which is so rude and NOT nonchantly at all. that once charming, confident you that i thought you were, is actually such a coward. you just can't face fact can you? sigh. how disappointing. but you know what? what you did yest was just so shocking and unbelievable. it's like the once big-hearted guy has become so petty. have i really made such a big impact on you that you had to have a 180 degrees change? is it worth it? seriously stop acting so cowardly la. doesn't matter. i've decided since you are trying so hard to block me out. i have too decided. i want to forget everything that had happened and treat it like it never happened before. we had our good times. but it was all lies and all fake. not worth remembering at all. hehehe. whatever la. i don't care. don't want to care! shut up sophia. hehehe.
sorry for going on and on. just that i want to let it out. hehehe. :P it's done i hope. i know i've been going on and on the past few days esp. hahaha. sorry guys. abt the fake wallet and all. HAHAHA. just hilarious. fake then fake la. just tell me not like i can't accept it. sigh. how disappointing.
anw other than that there's this not very nice girl whom i like to call bitch. sorry for being such a bad girl but then i can't think of any other name. sorry!! :S why ar? these days got so many pple that just keep stepping on my toes! it's irritating. anw i've bitched enough abt her d. so don't really want to blog. now i just hope it's really just going to go away and just blow away. i need some peace man really. lol. but she really did give me lots of headache the past few weeks. and spreading nonsense. omg. *faint* now i just wish my sister is all right. and that she would just wake up and not be so silly anymore. i hope someone will knock some sense into her. i know she's a nice girl but just impulsive and stubborn. (abit like me. HAHAHA. that's why i understand. WAHAHAH! :P) that's why i know she's a nice girl cos I AM! HAHAHAH! :P kidding la! but well at least i hope i'm not so impulsive and nonsense that i go around spouting rubbish. aiya whatever la. i duno why i'm being like this calling her a nice girl?! i'm mad. hahaha. all the trouble she gave me i still call her nice?? i'm crazy. maybe cos i know a bigger ASS than her now. HAHAHHAHA.
hai. this is getting so boring. i'm tired too. shall blog more later. if i can find the time. hehehe. :P sorry guys!
S ranted at 8:05 pm |
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